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Lil Wayne Recounts Being Close To Suicide In His Prison Memoir

Tue, Oct 25, 2016 by

Lil Wayne Recounts Being Close To Suicide In His Prison Memoir

Lil Wayne‘s “Gone ‘Til November: A Journal of Rikers Island” book has been out for 2 weeks now and in the memoir, there is a serious passage titled “Harshness” that you can read below, courtesy of Rolling Stone.

In the shocking passage, Wayne recalled contemplating suicide by writing he has never been so close to taking his own life before. He also mentioned that he had witnessed a kid while locked up trying to take his own life and how that opened up a new reality for him.

If you haven’t done so already, click here to purchase “Gone ‘Til November” online! Has anyone read all of Weezy‘s journal yet?

Harshness

Woke up around 5:00 a.m., made myself some coffee and went straight back to sleep. No lie, I didn’t wake back up until 2:30. It was close to lock-in. So I just stayed in my cell until lock-out.

Soon as it was lock-out, I headed straight to the phone. Afterwards, made myself a Ruffles burrito. There wasn’t that much going on in the dayroom, so I headed back to my cell to escape in my thoughts.

I ended up thinking about all types of shit. One thing that stood out was how I’ve never been this close to suicide before. It’s truly a new reality for me. I was actually there when this kid that was in mental isolation tried to hang up. What’s really fucked up is that it all could’ve been prevented if the [correctional officers] would’ve just brought him some water.

Since he was MI, nobody really attends to him because they are used to them banging on their cells all the time yelling shit like, “Yo, CO…CO.” And being that they’re so used to them banging, they didn’t pay him any mind and by the time they got back there, he was trying to kill himself.

And because I was in jail, I was like, Damn, that nigga is crazy … Oh well, what are we eating tonight? Jail desensitizes a lot of things. The reality in here is so harsh. I will never understand how anyone could think that this shit is cool.

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  • Giraffe Boy
    • Kollegiate Kermit

      i hate u for that south park shit lol

    • WeezyLEF

      Doubt it. On Mad he says “when I attempted suicide”, here he probably means that he was thinking about it. I think on Mad he talked about when he was a kid, just like he did in London Roads. But, tbh, you can never really know the actual problems people have and what is on their minds…

    • TRUKFIT

      WHEN HE SHOT HIMSELF AS A KID

      • Justin Cayz

        Wayne didnt attempt suicide as a kid… He didn’t know it would shoot him in the chest

  • Time

    I’m getting emotional

    • TRUKFIT

      CRY BABY

    • Raz!

      i have tears too

  • TRUKFIT

    WAYNE CANT DO ANY POSE WITHOUT THAT MIDDLE FINGER LOL

  • Malik
    • jbmurder47

      Metro lol

      • Malik

        Nah meen rns

    • Justin Cayz

      Finding Dory hot movie
      Man what the porn industry does for money

      • Malik

        Lol I still haven’t seen it yet it got some sexual scenes?

        • Justin Cayz

          Lmao nah man it’s a kids/family animation movie

  • NOAH 40 Shebib

    You aint bout dat

  • Khosta

    If I would kill myself that would be the greatest assassination – Tunechi

  • Khosta

    Stunna get me unbanned on Newchapter fam

  • Apple inc.

    Man I’m going to hell for laughing at this

  • 🐐WattbltπŸ™πŸΎ (23 mode) 😈

    Anyway Wayne about to get paid

  • YungStevenSeagal

    so where is that jeezy weezy new song?

    • YungStevenSeagal

      its not on tidal

      • Tunefan1234

        It is on tidal if u actually look

    • Mula EL

      Apple Music

  • Raz!

    i need the book

  • E dog

    D6 coming October 32!!!! im hype

    • Raz!

      you are so funny

    • Apple inc.

      Hahaha……ha..

    • 🐐WattbltπŸ™πŸΎ (23 mode) 😈

      Lol you had at me at first

  • YungStevenSeagal

    Bang the shooter name is wayne

    • Raz!

      i remember that madonna song

  • Apple inc.

    I still haven’t heard the verse..

    • Raz!

      which verse?

      • Apple inc.

        ‘Bout That’ but I just heard it now, it’s on YouTube.

        • Raz!

          ahh yeah its average

          • Apple inc.

            Atleast he wasn’t singing to the top of his lungs on the auto tune like a maniac this time lol.

            • Raz!

              i feeel aliveeeeee lol

  • T-Chubbs

    We moving slow n thankn quick

  • JT’s Revenge

    I seriously wonder what Wayne’s purpose in denying racism was…like he made so many songs from 05-08 that disprove that claim…was it a publicity stunt?

    • Raz!

      in my heart races on he even raps about racist cops lol

      • JT’s Revenge

        Idk what his purpose was with that…maybe he just wanted to curve the question, but idk…that was a weird one…

        • Raz!

          personally i think its because he has a huge white fan base and he didnt wanna lose any of them

  • Ym no cmb boy

    1 day left birdman πŸ™‚

    • Raz!

      getting ready for tmz to be on it

  • Ricky D

    Read the book within a few days of it being released. Wayne definitely goes through highs and lows but I don’t think he ever comes close to suicide. I think here even though it sounds like he means he’s close to killing himself, what he actually means is he is LITERALLY close to suicide. If you read the passage what he’s saying is that death/suicide is physically around him, he saw someone kill themselves. This is backed up by his reaction afterwards “oh well, what are we eating tonight?” I think what he saying is he’s never been around suicide before, and he’s shocked at how it isn’t affecting him how it would on the outside world because prison makes you used to these things.

    Throughout the book Wayne has people visiting, constant fan mail to keep him up, gets the best prison jobs and if there’s any troubles the other prisoners get moved to another block in case he sues. He even realised he can record raps through the prison phone and gets a new lease of life. I didn’t get the impression he was suicidal in any parts. The closest would be after he found out about drake and one of his girls hooking up, where he skips a diary entry cos he’s too angry to write. But even then he quickly rationalised it and carried on doing his time focusing on the right things.

    Love the site, keep up the good work.

    • Tuned #POP(MiMi is Bae)

      Nigga kys ain’t nobody reading this

  • Ym no cmb boy

    https://soundcloud .com/ismael-nu-ez-5/8-bit-trap-beat i’m new in this shit of the beats and if it’s trash let me know lol

    • Ym no cmb boy

      Use headphones please

    • Konfuzed

      Its trash.

  • Malik

    My niggas getting them rings! This game bouta be lit af 😈

    • logan k 32

      King james

  • Malik

    https://soundcloud.com/ismael-nu-ez-5/8-bit-trap-beat

    watch this shit be hella light smh

  • Slime

    feel alive was much better than that new jeezy song. Wayne always taking a step forwards and 4 back.

    • Malik

      U just said it was wack the other day πŸ˜‚

  • Malik

    Slime you used to be a wayy better troll wtf happen slime

  • logan k 32

    On the talking dead they read a question from a fan named Danny mousollia I was wondering if tht was u danny

    • Raz!

      i dont think thats his surname

  • Slime

    Lmao malik stop being so simple. Both songs are wack as fuck, but clearly The newer one is a whole other level of shit. Loyal to the soil was alright tho..just about.

    • Malik

      Bra how is that Jeezy song wack? N Wayne verse wasn’t the reason it was if you really think that n not tryna troll

      • Slime

        I got you guessing whether I’m trolling or not lol…means it worked.

        • Malik

          You troll nonstop tbh

        • WeezyFBaby

          Post nc link

  • Zay

    Feel alive was dope af! Craziest flow i heard from wayne ina while even tho it was just the hook
    Jeezy song was decent

    • Apple inc.

      You’ve clearly had enough liquor tonight.

      • Zay

        Lmao πŸ˜‚ I jus FEEL ALIIVVVEEE

        • Apple inc.

          Lmao you have to be drunk to tolerate that garbage. Definitely the worst Wayne hook.

          • Zay

            Naw to me it sound like he hungry and on another level
            But thats my opinion
            Cuz i fuck wit dat voice
            It sound like sqad wayne on some new school shit

            • Apple inc.

              “sqad up wayne “?? Yo put down the crack pipe!

    • Malik

      It was a hook

      • Apple inc.

        “Feel Alive” was but not “Bout That”

        • Malik

          Ik

      • Zay

        I want a whole song of wayne rappin wit that flow and energy of Feel Alive

  • Malik

    Just downloaded that Bow Wow n king Soulja <<

    • Yalldoneoryallfinished

      Is it dope

      • Malik

        Are you hungry

        • Yalldoneoryallfinished

          L.. lame ass fucker

          • Malik

            Lmao the last person that could hand out a L foh

    • Apple inc.

      If that’s yo chick then why she texting me?

      • Malik

        >>

        • Apple inc.

          πŸ’―πŸ’―πŸ‘

      • Raz!

        young MA

  • Malik
    • Tuned #POP(MiMi is Bae)

      Lmfaoo

      • Malik

        πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚

  • Khosta

    Fax

  • Slime

    Lmao..what happened to the judge getting the bill from birdman ?

    • Khosta

      Unban me

      • Slime

        Somebody posted a screen shot of you talking shit bout NC again on R6

        • Khosta

          Lies

    • Malik

      Wednesday I think is the last day

      • Tuned #POP(MiMi is Bae)

        God is good

        • Malik

          All the time

          In my grandma voice*

  • Khosta

    I wonder what it feels like to be Wayne like knowing that he is the greatest rapper to ever do it, damn like how does it feel

    • Slime

      …..DICK RIDER. Go back in your Hut Kunta

  • Tuned #POP(MiMi is Bae)

    Zay a jackass

  • Khosta

    Nigga stop being childish and unban me and we can roast each other if ya man enough to take a beating

    • Tuned #POP(MiMi is Bae)

      Stfu

      • Khosta

        Nobody talkin to you

        • Tuned #POP(MiMi is Bae)

          Stfu before I call up Mal Kermit and Hide to diss you

          • Khosta

            Ya know I murdered hide already

  • Slime

    Lmfao, Nobody wants ur handicapped ass on NC anyway. Stop begging me

    • Khosta

      Dude just stop it really

      • Slime

        Say sorry King Slime hahaha

        • Khosta

          Suck a dick

          • Slime

            Now say it in English you Monkey

            • Khosta

              Go learn how to read

              • Slime

                Haha comment on NC

  • Khosta

    They tried to unban you on r6 I told em not until you unban me. They said I must let em know when Im unbanned then they will unban you

    • Slime

      Lmao, unlike you I dont really care about getting unbanned. fuck r6

      • Khosta

        Ayt unban me, you cant get hurt by little things like that

        • Slime

          You unbanned…for now.

          • Khosta

            Thanjs

  • Malik

    πŸ˜‚ πŸ˜‚ khosta what you do

    • Khosta

      Nothing, nigga just senstive I swear listening to drake could have a serious effecr on your emotions

      • Malik

        Especially if the nigga light skin.. U kno Drake connect with them niggas on a different level

        • Khosta

          Fax he banned me again

    • Slime

      Nothing lol. everybody wanted him banned anyway

  • Khosta

    Slime can you unban me like forver bruh not for now

  • Khosta

    Comment on NC bruh

    • Tuned #POP(MiMi is Bae)

      Fuck you . Animal hunter

      • Slime

        LOOL, I already banned him again

        • Khosta

          Why?

        • Tuned #POP(MiMi is Bae)

          πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚

      • Malik

        Damn that’s how you feel πŸ’€

        • Tuned #POP(MiMi is Bae)

          Lmao

    • Raz!

      ban this guy from lwhq danny

      • Khosta

        Are you fuckin takin a piss??

        • Raz!

          no you always on her talkin about NC like we dont give a fuck so danny needs to just ban you from here too

  • Slime

    Only come on HQ Cause the indian legend Malik is boolin here…nigga just comment on NC. We aint gon hurt you…rn

    • Malik

      I’m African American…

      • Slime

        And I’m Goku

        • Malik

          You’re actually more like cell

    • Khosta

      Nigga you banned me again

      • Slime

        Na It says you still unbanned…comment again

        • Khosta

          Aye goodnight bruh Im sleeping

  • Malik

    Lmfao πŸ˜‚ khosta u playing yourself by going there in the first place

  • Tunefan1234

    Ok fuck cash money they made dolla remove Wayne from loyal to the soil

    • Khosta

      Forreal??

      • Tunefan1234

        Yes

        • Khosta

          Source or gtfo

          • Raz!

            his instagram

    • Tuned #POP(MiMi is Bae)

      Lies

    • Slime

      hahahahaha

  • Tunefan1234
    • Khosta

      Damn where are the reciepts

      • Tunefan1234

        Tomorrow the last day we will know by then

    • Young Boruto ♏

      Man cashmoney straight hoeing with this one

      • logan k 32

        Damn thts fucked up their went half of the album sales lmao

  • Tunefan1234

    Refresh

  • Slime

    LOOOL,They removing it because its trash.

  • Malik

    aye tuned make sure brla see my pic lol

  • Young Boruto ♏

    3 songs into this souljaboy bow wow mixtape & this shit ant that bad

    – Trashcab

    • Tuned #POP(MiMi is Bae)

      Lmaooo the intro nice

      • Young Boruto ♏

        I ant even goan sit here & lie that song my house was kool lol

        • Tuned #POP

          Lmao I ain’t hear it

          • Young Boruto ♏

            They trying lol should of dropped this after Marco Polo

            • Tuned #POP

              Fr, Soulja stealing flows

              • Young Boruto ♏

                Boy think he the migos

                • Tuned #POP

                  Lool fr

    • Raz!

      lol

  • Khosta

    Damn just checked his twitter its forreal, fuck cash money tbh

    • Tunefan1234

      The pic wasn’t enough proof lol

      • Khosta

        Tbh

    • Young Boruto ♏

      Can’t wait till this shit end boy can’t even take a shit without them saying he can’t flush it smh

  • Tunefan1234

    It’s sad birdman has control over his music career. Niggas not even letting Wayne earn money now from features

  • Raz!

    i thought birdman let wayne do features tho

    • Tunefan1234

      He petty cause he know he gonna lose the lawsuit cause tomorrow his last day

  • Slime

    Love birdman. Flexing whenever he wants!!! Wayne signed that contract so he shouldnt be complaining and dissing his owner!

    • Tunefan1234

      Fuck out of here

    • Khosta

      Unban me dude I wana talk to mimi tbh

    • Khosta

      Bruh

  • Khosta

    Slime unban me

  • Malik

    Lol birdman mad af Wayne bouta be free & tryna screw him as much as he can that’s how I kno he bs’n when he say Wayne his son n he’d do anything for him

    • Khosta

      Yea now we really know birdman the one tripping

  • Slime

    If you still think wayne is the victim then you lying to yourself. If birdman was truly in the wrong he’d do anything to get a out of court settlement. Wayne needs to stop lying and just admit he’s finished.

    • Khosta

      Nah

    • Malik

      Bird owes Wayne Drake and Nicki hella bread

  • JT’s Revenge

    Bird a hoe fr. But its cool, he has a day remaining to set Wayne free. Wayne must be laughing at this shit cuz he know once C5 drops there will be plenty of new music to enjoy.

    • Young Boruto ♏

      Ive been out of the loop why’s everybody saying its a day left?

      • Khosta

        He was given 30 days to show what he did to 70 mill

        • Young Boruto ♏

          Oh right I forgot about that birdman about turn into fried chicken the court goan fry his ass

          • Khosta

            Yeap

  • JT’s Revenge

    Instead of removing Wayne from music, why not look for the damn reciepts, after all he got a 51million L with his name on it, hot n ready like Little Cesars.

  • Khosta

    Slime bruh quit playing games

    • Malik

      U looking real desperate right about now bra

  • Tunefan1234

    Honestly anxious about tomorrow like what if we get C5 release date from Wayne celebrating the win

    • Khosta

      What if nothing happens

      • Tunefan1234

        Tbh we prolly won’t hear anything till like a few days later

        • Khosta

          True

          • Tunefan1234

            That wanna know drake remix πŸ”₯

            • Khosta

              I dont fuxk with Drake’s music at all

              • Tunefan1234

                I don’t either but it’s Dave that catches me on this song

                • Khosta

                  Wish I knew what you talkin bout but I dont check for anything Drake related

                • Tunefan1234

                  Just look up Dave wanna know and listen to the hook

    • 🐐WattbltπŸ™πŸΎ (23 mode) 😈

      Nigga ain’t won shit yet cause he still gotta go through universal

      • Tunefan1234

        That lawsuit is tied in with birdmans

  • Tuned #POP

    Malik has been exposed

  • Slime

    Malik getting roasted like a motherfucker….Gahdamn. Homemade necklace ass nigga…Posing whilst looking at those bills ass nigga

    • Malik

      πŸ’€πŸ’€

  • Tuned #POP

    But fuck the birdman

    • Slime

      *Butt fuck the birdman – Wayne 05

      • Tuned #POP

        Lmaooo

  • aye Malik I know you dont really fuck with me but uhh you might wanna pull up to NC and defend yourself lol

    • Slime

      Loool

  • #1Stunna(Mimi is Bae)

    what goin on?

    • Tunefan1234

      Birdman is forcing dolla to remove Wayne from the album

    • niggas sayin Malik been catfishing Mimi.. and she believes them

  • Ol Bitch ass niggas at cmr

    • Slime

      Na wayne the only bitch in this scenario

  • Apple inc.

    Hopefully Birdman is guilty of spending Wayne’s money and Wayne gets released from CM tomorrow. Hell, after this huge lawsuit, Slim & Baby could possibly be dropped from Universal.

    • JT’s Revenge

      That bitch nigga gon lie and say he love is son. He’s done and he knows it.

  • AutoTunechi
    • Apple inc.

      You’re like 2 hours late fam.

  • Malik

    I don’t have a problem wit u Lush, but I’m never gonna “pull up” to your site u kno this already..

    • lmao Lush? smh. I was only tellin you cuz they were tryna make you look like a catfish and I told Mimi she should contact you before believing them.. but whatever slime next time I’ll just let them clown you…

      • Malik

        They didn’t clown me they clowned some random nigga

        • Malik

          Stop acting like Jass don’t call you that

        • right but she was gettin ready to post all your real pictures cuz she thought you were catfishing? I told her to relax.. but whatever find a way to make me a dick lol

          • Malik

            I aint do nun to you just go back to your site

            • Slime

              Lool, dont lie fella. That picture was you

              • Apple inc.

                Where is it? I wanna see lol.

            • I didn’t say you did anything? I was just explaining myself? ehh whatever this was clearly a waste of time lol

    • Smh

      • Malik

        So you gon act brand new like I didn’t tell everybody this already? Is this news to u??

        • No lol it’s the fact you’re just kinda being standoffish and rude toward him when he was just doing a nice thing

          • Malik

            Saying I’m not gonna go on his site is rude? Thank God we don’t live by your standards

  • Malik

    Cavs got the dub on ring night LeBron wit the casual Triple double nahh meen sumn lite 😈

    • logan k 32

      In the first game tho nigga is gonna show them who the real mvp is

  • MarleyG

    Lil Wayne ain’t even in my top 5 tbh

    • Khosta

      Then kys

  • logan k 32
    • Malik

      Why tho

  • Zak

    Dame Dolla had to remove Wayne of his album due to Cash Money

    • 🐐WattbltπŸ™πŸΎ (23 mode) 😈

      Late bro

    • logan k 32

      Fuck cash money

  • Malik

    why y’all posting that man instagram

    • logan k 32

      Cuz I want 2 nigga

      • Tuned #POP

        Na slow ya roll Logan

  • Tuned #POP

    Malik disrespectful tbh

    • logan k 32

      Tru

  • Kentunechi

    Damn did y’all hear birdman made Dami remove lil wayne from his album

    • Khosta

      You late

  • Lavell Johnson Go USARMY

    Bruh wtf. this probably means wayne cant release any more features

    • Kentunechi

      Right

  • 🐐WattbltπŸ™πŸΎ (23 mode) 😈

    Warriors vs Spurs πŸ‘€Conference finals confirmed

  • Weezy4prez

    Bruhh I wanna hear Wayne on that “Haunted house” track by Hoody SOO BADDD. He would kill that beat

  • Biggie

    No not this again! This is so misunderstood. He is saying that he is close to suicide, that he is surrounded by it, and he is not used to that. Not that he wants to do it himself! @dannym

    • punkten

      This!
      Doesn’t say anything in that text that he is thinking of comitting suicide himself. As you said, he’s surrounded by it, he were present or at least close to a person physically that was trying to comit suicide. Reading comprehension is key.

  • JT’s Revenge

    Idk what to say ya’ll….Bird cracking down on Wayne’s featuring abilities shows something…even if the lawsuit works out in Wayne’s favor and he drops C5 and gets his album shine..I still feel like Bird’s gonna put a price on Wayne’s head..

  • BiteTest

    If you aint by the book you sick as shit.

  • Aleeyu Garba Ahmad

    hi

  • flippygat

    This should be taken down as someone else said he clearly is saying close to others committing suicide not himself.

  • Jessica King

    I’ve almost finished the book. Was reading it tonight and couldn’t help but notice the sentence “I’m a God-fearing man & I want to carry out his name the correct way”